I don’t feel blue; I feel gray.
This morning finds me feeling like the wet weather outside of my thin tinned walls: chilly, gray, leaky, and depressed. I feel inadequate and unworthy, and well, a lot of lonely. Maybe I will get dressed, go into town and be one of the thousands of people. Although, I know I will feel just as lonely as if I am here at home.
I need to find some inspiration, not that I will find it in Hattiesburg, but it doesn’t hurt to look for it. Who knows, I might find another hobby to add to my collection of “I’m not so good at it this hobby” hobbies I have.
I need some laughter. That’s what I need! I don’t laugh as much as I used to. I miss laughing. I can remember laughing all the time - I miss laughter. I miss laughter with other people. It’s one thing to laugh alone, but laughter is meant to be shared with others.
UGH! too many thoughts to keep up with and they are all connected to one thing but totally disconnected when I right them down. Just need a friend I can confide in and ramble on to. My make-believe friends, Mia, Miss Elf, & Iah just don’t fit the bill anymore. Well, I shouldn’t say that about them. They have put up with me for a lot of years, and have always been around when I’ve needed them.
